So I figured since I haven’t blogged in a while, I just tell everyone what God is teaching me and doing in my life. First off we are going to be starting the girls program in January and I am so excited about it. I know that it is going to take a lot of work and planning but I am ready to take on this challenge God has given me. I have been talking to some of the girl who I know would be great mentors to these young girls. We want the older girls who are going to set Godly examples for these kids and just love on them. Our vision for this program is to create unity in this group of girls. Junior High is all about cliques and fitting in but we are here to teach these girl how to be bold and stand up for their brothers and sisters in Christ. The older girl mentors that I am recruiting have so much wisdom and experience to share with these girls. I know God is going to do something amazing that only He can do through this ministry. I am just asking for your prayer over this, that God will just place the people in wants in front of me so I can make this happen.
Every day I learn something new about love. I realize people change but your love for that person stays the same. I have a friend right now that we went through a rough patch in the last year but we are starting to rebuild that friendship. God has given me such a love for her, deeper than I have ever had before but she continues to reject it. I realize not everyone is going to be my best friend but God says love no matter what and that is what I am trying to do. No matter if facing rejection over and over again, is like running into a brick wall. I know God has a plan and I am just his tool.
Another thing I have realized is how lost I was before I really discovered what God wanted for me. I was so hard hearted. I shut out my friends and kept to myself, and I realize now how much I did do that. I wouldn’t spend as much time with them because I would get annoyed so easily. I was so blinded by the love I had for a boy that I lost myself. I let this boy define me instead of my heavenly father. I let that boy become my everything, when I had everything I needed already. I am so sorry Lord, for pushing you aside. I shoved you off your throne and stuck a human boy there, someone who let me down.Humans will always let you down but God never will. God has given me the strength to build myself up again with Him and Him alone. It really hard for someone to be your everything then go to nothing but God is opening my eyes to how lost I truly was. Now I spend almost every day with friends. I have made new ones and even got back some old ones that I have really been missing. I let go of the past and now I am so ready for the future. God has the best guy for me but right now it’s just me and God!
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